When Anxiety Attacks
I wrote this while trying to put into words what it's like for me when I go into an anxiety attack. I know we are all feeling some kind of way with the craziness of the Corona Virus running wild, so I thought others might connect with my words as well. Poems aren't always something I write and especially not something I always share, but in times like these, writing has always helped me express myself.
I try to be strong and not let myself break,
But sometimes the thoughts aren’t ones I can shake.
I feel my chest tighten and my mind starts to race,
Intrusive thoughts take over as I begin to pace.
Everything is wrong and nothing is going right
How can I make sure this all is fixed tonight?
What do I do and what can I say?
I need to make this all go away.
I blink back the tears that threaten to fall,
As I look to the ceiling begging not to bawl.
Deep down I know my thoughts are insane,
But how do I get that into my brain?
I hear their words telling me that I’m okay
But my head tells me don’t believe what they say
It feels like a lifetime while it takes control,
And all I want to do, is crawl in a hole.
I try to catch my breath and slow the tears
While trying to fight against all of my fears
My heart slows down as I breathe in deep
And with any luck I’ll drift off to sleep.